Jan. 30. 週記- sent + shop + 拒絕信

包裹寄出摟!
放假開始跟媽咪連聯絡上就說把掛掉的電腦寄回去修

星期一去跑步, 30分鐘4.5公里左右
轉到市中心問問寄包裹的價位

priority/ economy
days 10~15天 / 10周
2-5kg 32.45 / 24.45
5-10kg 54.45 / 35.45
10-20kg 99.95 / 54.45 euro

真是有夠貴, 嘖....

回家一身臭臭濕濕洗洗澡休息, 寫信給媽咪, 商量
準備晚上去goodbye party

第二天真好又可以跟媽咪聊天, 11點媽咪下班我就衝郵局了
剛好跟到要去逛博物館的兩位芬蘭室友同行
也幫我把昨天封好的箱子綁到車上
一路上我小心翼翼的, 還沒載過東西, 加上不可能騰出手來扶他
寶貝電腦儘管層層裹著, 還有鬆鬆的衣物包圍, 還是摔不得
看外國人後面都是載一箱啤酒一手扶著騎, 完全沒綁的ㄟ
自知之名, 我還是小心的騎....

到郵局抽單, 要我先自己秤秤再來,結果一秤竟然7公斤
衡量半天只好把想偷塞的小禮物(大象巧克力)通通拿出來
只有幾件鬆鬆的輕褲子墊著電腦. 五公斤能寄的真的很少
他說大約要9~15個工作天, 過完年應該可以收到
再抽單, 要我填單子再回來><
抽單再排隊, 一個包裹排了三次 花了35歐...

郵局出來到市區逛逛, 在bodyshop幫媽咪買到了特價的組合
保溼京華液加上日霜, 是媽咪覺得很不錯的產品, 比在台灣買便宜700多,
不知道要不要多買一組, 回國送阿姨之類的, 不過話說其實台灣買的到, 行李又重重

後來去逛街跑到MEXX買了幾件衣服~.~ 花錢好心疼
聖誕過後的減價差不多要結束了, 到出都貼最後折扣價的標示
但是一個人逛, 沒有人聊天商量, 不知道合不合適, 怕挑的不好看,回頭要後悔

感覺好像自己突然有點愛漂亮><
有時候也想試著化妝, 不過似乎畫習慣了不畫妝就不行也不好
擦點眼影, 戴著眼鏡其實根本看不到;沒畫其他的了

回家其實滿開心的, 感覺買好禮物就可以準備回台灣了
早上跟梅子打電話, 他唸了一堆錦洲街上的小吃
中午自己去買的什麼雞腿客飯家奶茶的, 在台灣要覺得貴的食物
換算過來, 3歐以下應該只有外食take away最便宜的三明治吧
媽咪又魯了羊肉, 晚上吃麵線下羊肉湯, 聽了真心動
晚上又打算跟媽咪去約會看電影, 是上回沒看到的--贖罪, 我沒聽過

外頭天氣不好, 風好大, 時而又下下雨, 連騎車去兜兜風的興致都沒
電腦來了可以把我一天綁在家, 應該翻翻下一期的書的,
還有referee report可以寫寫看能不能加個0.5分的bonus
Utrecht Research master 的SOP也一定要在這禮拜寫完, 開學前要寄出


1/30 一早跟媽咪說話, 收信
University of Washington Graduate Application Decision, 第一封拒絕信
傻了好一下, 心好像沒什麼感覺, 呆呆的

怪utrecht通知的太早, 其實申請美國的時候就知道沒什麼希望
Utrecht conditional addmission在我準備報告昏天暗地的時候通知, 沒什麼感覺
現在只有等待接到一連拒絕信的份了, 算算還有三封

要是可以, 應該在收到一連拒絕信之後等到要收留我的信
那樣的開心應該還有感動和relief的感覺吧, 現在我倒著來


下午手機響起, 根本想不有誰會打給我
清醒下竟然接起來說: 惟~ 聽到另一端愣一下的聲音
原來是航空公司跟我通知班機時間提早, 真好!
也順便問問可否改期, 果然是聰明的服務員
不像上次那位狀況外, 還說要打回台灣問問, 結果也沒回電
Fourth of July, no problem! 搞定. 確認了一遍, 寄信通知, 真不賴
提早回台灣摟~~ 到台灣星期六也方便家人來接我, 真開心 :D

心得:
遇到靈光的服務員會讓人對公司加分 [China Air-line]
遇到親切推銷員會讓人不小心敗家 [Bodyshop]
遇到友善的老闆會讓人想要再次光顧 [The pub]
遇到處理得當的客服會讓人宣傳喚經驗時輕描淡寫些 [KLM不及格,超級差]


晚上煮了簡易康寶酸辣湯包, Neels 看了直呼驚奇
原來Korr是德國的牌子, 他沒想到"康寶"這麼國際化,都出了國外當地的口味
還拿像機出來拍有中文字的包裝 ^^

吃完Ritva請吃蘋果僕葡萄乾pie, 明明就是pie他們卻說是cake, 不過真的很好吃
明天就要走了, 但是看房間的東西還很多
一直稱Ritva - "lovely lovely" 的Steven, (不是lovely喔! 一定是疊用)
已經幫要進住的下一位房客取好名子: ugly ugly, 表示不捨
我寫了張台灣明信片的卡片給她作紀念, 還有一包暖暖包, 我想芬蘭一定用的到的
(她跟Laura都說還沒穿到冬天的外套, 說我們不懂 負40度是什麼)
時常party的她, 真的認識很多朋友, 心裡難過, 不過也相約4月回來過女王節
Neel答應她要送她去機場, 幫她扛行李, 住三樓的她說現在不知道怎麼把行李拖到一樓
我笑說像雪橇一樣滑下去好了, 她也說不失為一個好方法;p

晚上他們又去party了, 喝酒聊天, 我沒去
到底改變成一個會party 去pub的交換學生好不好?


這禮拜真的很混, 沒做什麼事, 也沒去什麼地方,
窩著, 下午送Ritva後, 沒下雨就去郊區兜兜風吧
不可以眼睜睜看假期結束, 下一期的課衝堂了, 好像勢必要放棄一堂,亂七八糟

news~ partial 聖誕節照片上傳~

相簿新增了聖誕節的照片, 上傳出了些狀況, 不全
也可瞧瞧http://picasaweb.google.com.tw/Rhymer123/2007

日記不到什麼時候才能紀錄那幾天的旅行, 先看看照片杯

Jan. 28 Ritva Good-bye party - 夢到走唱團

大家都考完試的星期一晚上, 一月底了,
最先要離開我們小小學生宿舍的是Ritua,三樓的芬蘭女生.
約好給他個GOOD-BYE party, 要給他驚喜是很難的.
畢竟同一個屋簷下, 隨時風聲都要走漏的.

先去吃pizza在去打保齡球.或許在去pub窩一下
其實只要想在, 在這兒自己煮跟在南台灣物價,每天學生宿舍吃的價錢差不多
便可想像, 外食在這裡的起跳價, 會如何更上一層樓.......

花400塊再台灣已經是一套豐盛的莎拉麵包濃湯主餐甜點飲料
學生來說, 一學期期末慶功200多塊已經是很傷荷包的開銷
在這2~3歐(90~150nt)一份路邊攤炸魚,5~6歐(250-300)一份速食麥當勞
去餐廳7歐餐只有一個煮菜就算是最便宜的了. 貴一點的加個湯15歐相當於7,8百台幣了

所以就算你隨便抓一個學生問哪裡有好吃便宜的餐廳,
他可能也說不上來,畢竟學生一般真的是不吃會外食的

跟他們出去消磨了一晚, pizza還不錯,我點ham+蘑菇的基本口味,6.5歐
一個女生吃還真是要吃不完的, 加一杯汽水2歐,
心想這錢去超市可以買半個禮拜的菜了, 真的只能偶一為之享受一下
8點吃到9點多,其實五個室友話都不多,比較討厭的是其中只有Laura跟我一樣不說德文
所以他們有時說起德文真的霧煞煞, 就被排除在外了.

閑聊, 我們都不是話多的人
不過基本感情不錯, 可以互相share一些食物,嘗試別種口味的pizza
另外他們也點了莎拉, 莎拉的名稱就是叫醬料的名稱
原本以為有一大盤蔬菜的沒想到是蔬菜點綴醬料為主的莎拉盤,看的很傻眼
pizza薄皮,很快上桌,
Suzzana的4種cheese, Neels的ham+蘑菇青椒洋蔥, 兩位女生的速食玉米青菜口味
Steven主廚全肉大蒜pizza,他開玩笑說要放在facebook上自介: 我愛吃肉-我愛大蒜

餐廳氣氛不錯!

由於Suzzana沒有車,我們提早些離開牽車去保齡球館
時間剛剛好,不過鞋子不易找到合腳的尺寸
輸入好名子開打—steven-laura-me-neels-ritva-suzzana
實力不是看strike數, 而是能不能穩穩打
我也意外敲了幾個strike只是也常常連連洗溝
第一局就在第二領先前半局後開始洗溝以倒數第二結束
balling center的音樂很loud, 喜歡剛開始的mtv: It’s ok
Steven有實力, 但是越打越不開心
Neels 保持好心情, 第一局後半追上,奪得冠軍
Ritva 身藏不露, 每回7~8隻不是問題
Me, Laua & Suzzan一直是落後者的墊背, 打擊率很不穩定
兩個小時很快就過去, 打了兩局, 第二局我與Neels同96分位居第二
Ritva破百遙遙領先

音樂很吵加上最後一個小時的燈光效果, 還有球的品質很糟
是讓steven臉很臭的原因, 不過是真的, 我們每個人拇指都腫腫的

續托地點不易找,
原來禮拜一博物館通常休息之外, 商店,pub也都關的早
oud canel旁酒館閒聊, 第一次點酒, 真不知道要喝啥
問老闆要—something light
他竟然裝了小杯杯讓我試喝在決定—真好!!!
我一開始還搞不清楚狀況, 問他這一小杯要多少 ;p
推薦了兩種, 一種澀些, 一種櫻桃口味甜的多, 都是五啪以下的
我怕喝甜的要不知節制, 點了澀的嚐嚐就是.

一桌的flatmate, 其實我們真的都不是多話的人
要輪流說說笑話, 好不冷場, 或許也因為都累了……


一點多走, 一行人騎車回家, 不知道為什麼很喜歡這樣
前前後後跟車互相照應的感覺, 好像颺韻衝音樂會時那樣
沒有醉, 我只喝了半杯, 卻放肆的想唱歌

跟他們去晃晃, 就像宵夜之必須一樣, 是聯絡感情的管道
只是很不喜歡回來的一身煙味, 衣服頭髮風吹不掉


晚上夢到合唱團,
好笑的是我知道自己在作夢, 一個個細數誰沒出現在夢中
沒有情節, 只知道到齊了, 好像就能安心一樣.

鄉村門口, 我們必須 “克制的” 放肆唱歌
不知道為什麼跟你們在一起總有說不完的話
唱不完的歌, 創造力無限的笑點, 總是太開心的時光…..

Jan. 26 Gorningen 一日遊

打定主意要出去走走, 其實是因為之前買的特價票要到期了
衝出10歐票區都算之下, 我選定幾個遙遠的觀光景點搜尋
旅遊書幾乎都翻完了, 發現冬天果然不是旅遊季, 難怪有特價票

荷蘭最著名的cheese和tulips都要到三月底才開始
花季, cheese市集才會開始營業, 有些博物館也因此10~3月是不開放的
呈現一整冷清的蕭索氣息.

到週五晚上其實都還不確定明天要去哪裡
只是把書包收拾妥當, 水/像機/錢包/票/旅遊書/小說/傘/火車時刻

早上起來第一件事就是打電話回家, 週六媽媽不上班, msn找不到的
阿嬤接起說要晚些才到, 決定等等半個小時在call要不我也該出門了
發現在荷蘭的姑姑就在我阿嬤家, 晚上阿公要請他們吃飯

msn上跟大三學姊聊, 她很喜歡荷蘭
在我感覺要產生倦怠感的時候問她; 為什麼喜歡荷蘭??
她的旅行經驗聽來隨性, 膽子很大的她, 會在路上找人閒聊, 問東問西
她說每個人都說荷蘭人友善, 所以她就來測試一下……
因而得到很多樂趣. 跟她聊天, 感覺可以充電, 增加活力與期待感
發現自己其實還有很多沒有嘗試的, 還是給了自己一些限制, 沒有跨出去

中間在call還沒到, 沒跟媽媽說到話……
在學姐催促下(不要浪累旅行的時間聊msn啦~~~)抓書包出門
鬼天氣陰的要命, 還好不頂冷, 今天穿漂亮毛衣 J

衝衝衝, 一路飆到後站, 星期六一路上車少. 火車站一然熱鬧
問車之下, 原本要往南去的Rotterdam修路中, 要轉巴士麻煩
心一轉, 往北, Gorningen也是打都市, 也有得逛!
只可惜剛好錯過一班車, 要在等等半個小時~.~
不過這兒的車站可熱鬧, 各累小吃商店環繞
Utrecht的車站更與一個百貨公司的商店接相連因此總是人潮眾多

住在荷蘭的中心地帶, 往最難最北大約都是兩個小時的車程
到最熱鬧的Amsterdam只要半小時

上了車, 提著行李箱旅行的也不少
我沒位在車門邊唉著,旁邊一個老太婆
我翻著旅遊書, 瀏覽今天的行程
中間轉車, 在網路上已查好, 就算聽不懂廣播也不怕!
換車有了位子, 外頭的景緻沒有太大的變化,
整片的空地變多了, 綠油油的讓我想到雲嘉的農田, 只是這裡荒涼的多
閱讀Summer Before the Dark, 這個chapter很引人入勝的.

兩個小時感覺滿快的, 末站下車, 所有人都用向右前方的橋
好像所有的人都認識路, 知道哪裡有好玩的一樣
我跟著人群, 最近的市立美術館第一站比地圖上感覺近的多
我在擁擠的人群中湊進去瞧瞧才知道已經到了
第一到用museum card還要付2歐的博物館
近期特展俄羅斯folk tale成人圖畫書的繪畫, 風格很特別
儘管故事的內容都陌生, 但是感覺像是童書, 別緻而可愛
他給的解說甚為詳細, 幾乎幾張一個系列的她就介紹, 只是都看不懂



 museum本身的造型更是妙, 整體結構在水上,
地下室更可從窗看到浸在水中的下半部建築物
以及仍在水面上火車站景緻, 十分特別

樓上有常設展區人就少的多, 但還是很有看頭
三樓的現代藝術我還是不會欣賞, 不過展示空間的設計都很舒適
線條有些區域以馬賽克拼貼,有些則以大紅鋼條裸露

 

 展示感覺非常的隨性, 並非每一幅畫都並排呈現, 高高低低感覺活潑
地下室則有中國現在藝術家的創作,
由色彩般蘭的點點組成, 每幅畫有不同的律動和色調
還有一面牆, 三幅組成, 左右以紫及粉為機底, 中間則是同色拼貼毛澤東像
感覺就是共產黨統治時期的渣渣, 大陸人抹布去的歷史

一逛兩個小時, 到了兩點餓到不行才出來
其實在museum還有看到有人掏出三明治在喀的, 令我嘖嘖稱奇
只是我的三明治在書包, 而書包被迫寄物了, 要不我也會有樣學樣的
在這美術館幾乎都強制寄物, 怕撞到展示品吧, 外套也是;
通常免費, 對我來說真是一大福音,
畢竟書包背著重可以卸下, 裹著大外套逛美術館也不舒服
另外美術館內只要不用閃光也可拍照, 這也是我有樣學樣得知的….!!

出了美術館一樣跟著人群便走到了魚市集, 差點就要點薯條了
轉個彎魚攤, 難得出門一定要嚐嚐看, 比手畫腳她也不懂我要什麼
隨意指點一下, kipnit的東東一盤三點五歐的炸魚到手
 不知道是什麼魚, 但是裹了粉真的有料, 粉不厚, 魚也鮮
風大, 吃熱熱的東西真幸福, 醬酸酸的也好吃, 只是熱量一定很高>.<



往前走是另一個處處有指標的市集, 但是人潮反而少, 東西賣的雜
我隨意晃晃到她外圍的王子公園, 比想像中的小,
寧靜可愛, 但是偏遠些人少我不敢久留
這大約就是一個人自住旅行的壞處, 多少都要比一群人時謹慎

其實Groningen不大, 轉轉依路標就到了大學博物館
晃了一下, 科學性的展覽我比較沒興趣, 且都是荷語導覽, 看唔
時間不早, 預定要去看的船與煙博物館眼看在一個小時內就要關了
然而找這個博物館我近乎繞了市中心的外圍一大圈,
到大運河邊繞了一圈, 近乎以為自己迷路了
抵達時天色暗了, 只剩半個小時
裡頭展示很多很多過去的帆船模型, 大約還有渔家生活的介紹
我一直想看煙部分的展示卻不知在那兒
整個博物館像是小迷宮, 沿著‘‘參觀方向’’也要迷路的
窄窄的迴旋梯, 粗粗的船鎖當抓附物
展示過去的煙槍, 抽煙的文化, 可惜真的沒有時間逛
……老實說是逛到那兒怕出不去, 不知道參觀方向會帶我到哪裡…..:P
‘‘逃’’到大門口時, reception小姐也在收拾敢人了, 很慶幸趕上了

五點天全黑了, 走回魚市集, 攤販也都收拾完畢
原來我真的繞了一大圈, 因為其實博物館離是集很近
沿著來時路, 許多跟我一樣的一日遊客也在規程
還有不少大學生樣的人騎著腳踏車穿梭
這兒的市中心路設計上與utrecht不太一樣
不知道為什麼不知不覺用很快的腳步趕著
好像天黑了就不該在外頭閒逛, 捏著心, 緊緊的

 

 回到市立美術館, 夜晚景更加美麗
一個人的旅行, 許多感覺沒有人說
我終究不是會找人說話問東問西的人

上了車, 今天穿美美的也沒拍幾張照片可惜, 自拍紀念一下
車程上已經看不到窗外了, 我再拾起小說閱讀
回Utrecht竟下著點點小雨, 真討厭
一天下來好累, 只好又婉拒了與他們一道去party
雖說想要out going 些, 但是習慣的作息不是三天了頭改變的
而且要常這樣party身體一定稿壞的, 沒有健康一點的玩法嗎?


晚上同Rhymer聊, 跟他說‘‘大三學姊’’….
他說哪有人大四了還這樣叫的??? (笑我)
不這樣叫他哪搞的清楚?
何況對我來說, 她擁遠都是很照顧我的大三學姊阿
大一切少指頭就是她載我去給醫生縫的, 後來複檢載我跑醫院
這些都是常常掛記在心上的
一直沒有當學姊的感覺, 老像學妹一樣, 長不大的.


離題了……. 今天的Gorningen 一日遊順利!
累攤了 還不知道明天要去那兒呢?!
特價票 最後一張最後一天, 我一定要去晃晃~~

Jan. 25 電腦到了!!!

說有預感電腦會今天到是真的也是騙人的
因為我已經整整一個禮拜都有這種預感了....

期末考週壞天氣,我幾乎在家蹲了一個禮拜
每天看書眼睛飄窗外,看看有沒有郵差經過
耳朵諦聽,聽郵桶咖搭一聲郵件掉落的聲音
心不在書上,完完全全被等待包裹信件瓜分

週五行程:
去圖書館用電腦回信->市區晃晃->原住民美術館->UCU運動

美術館跟我第一次去還在佈置的時候差不多,
多了影片放映, 有些片段還滿有fu的….
但因為只有在原住民說話時有英文字幕,
因此我反而聽懂原主民在說什麼,主持人說的我一蓋不了
很喜歡他門票設計,所以有時間還想在去逛逛拿門票 ;p

去UCUC運動也還算OK, 只是體理變的很差, 很免強的持續跑30分鐘 4.5公里有吧...爆累
回家的路趁天還沒黑亂騎, 經過一段第一次
嘗試從UCU走一個小時回家,以為在也不會經過的路,還是很美
原路幾乎天天騎,不是為了報告就是MEETING,真的騎得很煩.

景緻其實還是很棒的,但是偶爾風風雨雨,真的會讓人暗罵幾句
我想不知道是不是因為在國外,什麼東西都用"欣賞"的角度在衡量
因次會"膩"! 回想台灣的無序, 彌天的招牌,永遠被霸佔的人行道
是因為從不以"欣賞"的角度去看嗎? 凌亂中有熟悉,熱鬧,我還是想念台灣的

回到家開門, 一直一直想會有一個大大的包裹橫在走道
Neels會探出頭跟我說下午到了, 在那兒要擋路了
我會很得意的大叫, 說那是我的電腦, 可惜落空了
走廊很空, 房子理只有二樓的電視聲…
我還發神經的想是不是要給我個意外, 把我包裹藏到樓上去了
當然, 沒有人這麼無聊…唉, 要等到什麼時候呢???

餓了, 先洗澡在來下麵
醬料已經吃很久了, 不過下麵丟青菜林醬很快就好了
上桌還很得意的拍照, 正要下’’叉’’時, 門鈴響了
this is it, 絕對不是外掛室友Susana了!!!
郵差在門口要我簽名, 很大一箱子, 他不知道我有多開心見到他

粗暴的拆箱子 (膠帶實在很多很緊…) 像是外國人拆禮物那樣
滿滿一層的零食, 我愛的蘇打餅, 日本的巧克力, 暖暖包,
金針, 感冒藥, 湯包, 海苔, 蜜餞……我一樣樣細數著
還有—電腦! 好料壓相底, 給我挖出來!
電腦背包藏的東西我也一樣樣掏出, 手錶, 藥品…信用卡

真是太開心了:D

義大利麵都涼了, 我整理著大箱子的東東, 把電腦架設起來
好像一點都不餓了一樣, 只是好開心, 終於可以打電話回家了!

The only bad news is I later have my dinner heated and had it with the computer again. The time I eat only with my food and sometimes with some free reading is behind me again. It is silly that one cannot control one’s laziness in staring at the computer; however, I have to say, thought I dislike the time without the computer, I do miss the time when I get to read and think more deeply without throwing myself to the internet again where I still feel lonely but with less thinking.

I will try to update more of my trip to share with you, my friend. However, I will also try to avoid leaving my novel behind. I did like the book I bought for myself in Christmas and I’d like to keep reading it.

Things will be back to the normal trend again. I can’t wait to call my family :D

Jan. 24 Has the Postman Forgotten me?

I am waiting for a package of my NB from Taiwan, have you been keeping it on your own and not wanting to deliver it to me?
It carrys the love from my mom, please bring them to me.

I am out of computer for nearly a full week. It is very inconvenient and at the same time keeping me away from calling and connecting my family.
I am nearly starting to get used to "writing" dairy now since sometimes I really need to talk to someone and in another form -- writing or typing them down.

Without a computer force me to look into my lonely life more clearly which I do not fit in the enviornment so well and had not been to parties with my flatmates make me feel unfamilier with them.
I had no chinese books to read or something to distract me from the tension I have before my exam. I pick up the book I bought in Christmas and tried to read. At first it was pretty difficult since I it's hard to claim down; on the other hand, I realized that I have not been reading casual English novel for a long time and the reading habit seems to disappear in some way. This makes me wants to remind my Katy to keep up her habbit! It is really nice that she orgainized her time well and wants to read when she have the relaxig time to do so.

Sorry to my friends who cares about me which hates to read English, but now while only avaiable to use public computers, I had no choice.
It is even crazier to use my flatmate Neels German keybraod which have y and z switch with one another, which makes me spell really odd things like: "Happz Birthdaz to zou...!"
But also get to see the odd symbles Finland notbook has with all those funny dots on the charactors.... However I hope not to bother them to much borrowing their computers too often.

I will be having a week of break before the third peroid starts, I hope to travel and refresh meself in getting ready for the next block!
I hope god Netherlands will grant me some good weather for some travel, it will be awfully too boring to stay home all the time.
Also, I wish to make some changes in my life by going out meeting new people sometimes. Isn't this the point of going abroad to study-- to open my eye in knowing more about the world?! Utrecht is really an international city and UU is also an really internationlized university. I should really take adventage of it!

Pray for a good weather and a eariler arivel of my package from sweet home- Taiwan~~

Jan 15. stress? GO away!

Back from journey for quite some time, after finishing IMFB report by Friday, I leted myself rested too fully over the weekend, and ended with too much to chew in this week before the final and also still another demanding report obligated far from done.

Received Conditional addmission on Friday 11th of January. Maybe I was still hooted on my IMFB or maybe because I knew at some extend that it is not as hard as other Universities in the USA since they did not ask for my ugly GRE test result.

Since the illness, I am having a really bad home sick. Not even chocolate is attracting to me. Do I have a change in taste??? It's getting harder to like the food here especially with my lousy cooking. I miss the food and friends and family more then anything now.

Monday among contecting the UU about my visa applicaion, I found my permission to stay here in Netherlands last till July 4th. In this sense, I feel they don't like so many foreigners in their country and try to kick you out of the country as soon as possible. So, I have to get back before that day though I don't know what they will do to me if I don't, something like illegle stay I guess. I called China airline and they say they'll have to contect Taiwan again for the changing process.

Tuesday received letter from UCLA in informing that they did not get professor MC'S recommendation letter, which is the most complicated one since it requires my signiture as well as the teachers. I have to get a fake signiture again. I hate this. Also, the TOEFL score did not arrive. I hate this even more. Why do ETS have so much problem doing their business and job? Because they are monopoly?? and they serve as they wish without a decent standard after you paid? I got tooooo many complain about ETS now. I hate dealing with it, they also reply at the most slowest. @@

I don't know if it's because of the coffee or the stress altogether. I hate feeling that I have wasted a great morning which I plan to do quite some studies and in the end used in dealing triffle things and still far from accomplish.

A bad habit. Though making some progress, but in knowing things can not be done after spending to much time on it and still cannot close the case frustrates me.
I always like to finish the thing that I can very quickly accomplish and whipe it out of my list the first and then feel a bit relief and to have the strength to move forward. And now nothing is out of the list and many to follow up. ><

After finishing the exams on next Monday and Thursday, I have to think again about whether to apply for the serious Reserch Master Utrecht Offers or keep on the track of International Economics and Business. The bigest difference is that the Research Master requires two years of study and offers a lot more foundamental courses. I have advice from IMFB professor who also suggest me that if Master is not my final degee, it is better to take more foundamental courses instead of applicational courses which the program I got accepcted offers.
I don't know how should I aim this degree. If it's not the final, why two years now? If it's not the final, it is actually better really to get some good training before I go to the USA. Also, it is those foundamental coures that I may be able to get some 抵免. Should I apply and make the final decision letter? or can I decide now and not to waste the money deciding not to study here anyway.

It's not a good time to think about this question further now since there is no clear answer and that I have no time to think which I should use in study for the final.
Especially when I am home sick, thoughts like: why not spend a year home and maybe find a short term job while applying? Which can be simply read as: I want to stay home and rest a little. Not wanting to move forward sometimes is not a good idea. Sometimes it's so hard to remember the passion I had when I first think about comeing here.

When the weather just gets soo wrong, and it really drags people back from the road and wanting to go home. The wind was so stong today, can be compair with the wind in Hsin-Chu I would say. It's not only difficult to move forward, but it is sometimes really dangerous when it comes from the side. I had a really difficulty to balance and ride stright not to bump into others.

Harsh. Not fully recover from the cold, it gets me a harder time to get a good sleep at night and further result in a sleepy daytime.
I have to be strong to survive through this low mood and stress!!! Later comes the break between peroid, I will have a good rest then :)

GOGO witch!

Jan. 10 Sever cold after the trip

The sever cold was actually not the first thing after the trip since it sort of started last two days of the trip which I start to get very tire and the last day I got too weak that I could hardly have the strength to stand and walk. The five hours of train in the last journey must have been really really long for Rhymer compairing to the unconcious me who only feel very very weak, tired and that's all. Rhymer has really been considerate and take good care of me for carrying my heavy backpack in addition to his.

After arrival, some forced vomit made me feel better thought very digusting... I had to face the inconvenent truth that my NB notebook's hard disk is too severly damage and could not recover to open to the windows anymore. With the report dead-line right in front of my face, I felt so stress with my sicked body that made me unable to pick myself up to do anything. I realized that two of my flatmates are sick as well and it seems to be a very long lasting cold speading around recently (internet say many in UK cought it!).

I stayed in bed all day on Monday. I don't recall any cold that keep me in bed for a long time (at least not in the past three years). The pain stroke me down. I even have difficulty getting out of bed for the toilet and can not walk steadyly on the way to the bath room. It was horrible. I miss the meeting with professor for the report and skip the very worth-while-listening lecture of Econometrics. What a day....

But mostly I have to day thank you to Rhymer who take good care of me a cook me very nutritious rice for me (since my stomic is rather weak, he cook them with very simple taste). Also went to the supermarket for me to buy some food for me.


Unconcious for the whole Monday, I feel a bit better the next day and made myself to go to school to write the report and meet the professor for advice of the report before we hand-in. The fever still occacionally attact me and when it comes, I felt really bad, but in other time, I still have some strength to work. The wind is crazy that day and I spend nearly twice as much of the time to get to school since there seems to be something wrong with my bike and also because of my weakness. >< I felt like to give up sometimes.

I went to AH afterwards to get some fruits and meat wanting to cook something special for the last night of Rhymer's stay. The heat come later and leave me lack of strength to work after the wonderful curry pork we had together. (Please don't frow before give it a try.)


The pain and uncomfortness makes me miss mom very much. I recall how she accompanys me all the time through the cold and stay close to me through out the nights worrying about me.

It is after being once again even more far away to understand how precious it is to be home and to have your mom unconditionally taking care of you without complain. I miss mommy alot.

I cried noticing how impossible it is to go home now, and never again like the time in Kaohsiung that at least there is a promising time at least within a month that I will be home again to be in her shouder. I miss her.

I wonder if it is possible for her to come to me in the spring time when Dutch flowers are most famous booming. I wish to show her the place where I stay in these days and spend days and days together with her without seperating.

Wednesday is again a hard day, the fever keep heated in the morning and made me missed the group meeting to work with my team members.

Rhymer had not been feeling well too. I didn't had the chance to spend some good time with him in the last few days since I am either too sick or too busy with the repot.

But the time still comes that me must go back to Sweden and the flight would not change again like the delay of his arrival. I feel very very sad to sent him away. This is too hard for me especially in this time when everything is so stressful and with an out of order NB which it mean I lost the mean of contect back home.

I manage to do a bit study but not very efficient because the fever is still up. However the good news come in the afternoon that one of my classmate is willing to lend me his very very slow computer which he no longer want to use to me. The slowness is incredible! But I have no right to complain, but to be thankful that at least I can work on the report at home late and not having to stay late in the library late and ride back in the cold night.


Thusday. I could not get up in the morning for the earily tutorial but in the extended sleep of an hour, I cough very hard and got something out of my throught and have actually make me feel better for the rest of the day. The fever cooperatly leave before I had to go to school. It is funny how I found my lateness still be the first one to arrive, all other were evenmore late.... We didn't so much before the tutorial starts and it seem a bit a waste of time.

During the tutorial, I feel neverous since the terms are again hard for me since I have really been on a vacation and had not been studying for a really long time. The second peroid is even worse since the heat come back. Everytime the heat comes, my eye start in tears and headach come. I hate this. I can't focus, listen not to mention, to think!

Afterwards, I read the monetary report in the computer room till it close at 5. Found my bike's light not working again stress me and also make a dangerous way home since it's already full dark by 4:30.

I went to the supper market to get some vegetables since I found my mouth with a few hole probably because the heat as well as the germs.

Later went to the bike shop to fix the back break, the light and also the flat-tire. It is simply beacuse the light blob is loose that made it not lighting up for the front one, but the break might take a bit more time and the boss tell me to come back next week--like alway... After the air is filled, the bike is much easier to ride (Gee, you have no idea how difficult it is to ride to school in the last few days.)

Also another useful information the boss tell me that the light have to be "on" the bike and can not be pinned to the backpack or anywhere else. He made the gesture of covering his face with his hand when telling me that some police will pretend he did not see (cover face/eye) when he see the light on the backpact, but some police might not be so nice and will give you a ticket instead.>< The most point he want to make is more that he wants me to buy the new light he offers 7.75 euros which I will not think of buying even he wants me to think about it....


Another day ends, it is always been really fast for a week to go by with or without the letures and tutorial since it is always stressful, demanding and in a fast time pace. There is so much to work on and study all the time!

Compair to the past few days, I feel better and I cross my fingers that this trend will be kept.



ps. the trip journal will be posted after my final exams are over which is at least two weeks after :P