The sever cold was actually not the first thing after the trip since it sort of started last two days of the trip which I start to get very tire and the last day I got too weak that I could hardly have the strength to stand and walk. The five hours of train in the last journey must have been really really long for Rhymer compairing to the unconcious me who only feel very very weak, tired and that's all. Rhymer has really been considerate and take good care of me for carrying my heavy backpack in addition to his.
After arrival, some forced vomit made me feel better thought very digusting... I had to face the inconvenent truth that my NB notebook's hard disk is too severly damage and could not recover to open to the windows anymore. With the report dead-line right in front of my face, I felt so stress with my sicked body that made me unable to pick myself up to do anything. I realized that two of my flatmates are sick as well and it seems to be a very long lasting cold speading around recently (internet say many in UK cought it!).
I stayed in bed all day on Monday. I don't recall any cold that keep me in bed for a long time (at least not in the past three years). The pain stroke me down. I even have difficulty getting out of bed for the toilet and can not walk steadyly on the way to the bath room. It was horrible. I miss the meeting with professor for the report and skip the very worth-while-listening lecture of Econometrics. What a day....
But mostly I have to day thank you to Rhymer who take good care of me a cook me very nutritious rice for me (since my stomic is rather weak, he cook them with very simple taste). Also went to the supermarket for me to buy some food for me.
Unconcious for the whole Monday, I feel a bit better the next day and made myself to go to school to write the report and meet the professor for advice of the report before we hand-in. The fever still occacionally attact me and when it comes, I felt really bad, but in other time, I still have some strength to work. The wind is crazy that day and I spend nearly twice as much of the time to get to school since there seems to be something wrong with my bike and also because of my weakness. >< I felt like to give up sometimes.
I went to AH afterwards to get some fruits and meat wanting to cook something special for the last night of Rhymer's stay. The heat come later and leave me lack of strength to work after the wonderful curry pork we had together. (Please don't frow before give it a try.)
The pain and uncomfortness makes me miss mom very much. I recall how she accompanys me all the time through the cold and stay close to me through out the nights worrying about me.
It is after being once again even more far away to understand how precious it is to be home and to have your mom unconditionally taking care of you without complain. I miss mommy alot.
I cried noticing how impossible it is to go home now, and never again like the time in Kaohsiung that at least there is a promising time at least within a month that I will be home again to be in her shouder. I miss her.
I wonder if it is possible for her to come to me in the spring time when Dutch flowers are most famous booming. I wish to show her the place where I stay in these days and spend days and days together with her without seperating.
Wednesday is again a hard day, the fever keep heated in the morning and made me missed the group meeting to work with my team members.
Rhymer had not been feeling well too. I didn't had the chance to spend some good time with him in the last few days since I am either too sick or too busy with the repot.
But the time still comes that me must go back to Sweden and the flight would not change again like the delay of his arrival. I feel very very sad to sent him away. This is too hard for me especially in this time when everything is so stressful and with an out of order NB which it mean I lost the mean of contect back home.
I manage to do a bit study but not very efficient because the fever is still up. However the good news come in the afternoon that one of my classmate is willing to lend me his very very slow computer which he no longer want to use to me. The slowness is incredible! But I have no right to complain, but to be thankful that at least I can work on the report at home late and not having to stay late in the library late and ride back in the cold night.
Thusday. I could not get up in the morning for the earily tutorial but in the extended sleep of an hour, I cough very hard and got something out of my throught and have actually make me feel better for the rest of the day. The fever cooperatly leave before I had to go to school. It is funny how I found my lateness still be the first one to arrive, all other were evenmore late.... We didn't so much before the tutorial starts and it seem a bit a waste of time.
During the tutorial, I feel neverous since the terms are again hard for me since I have really been on a vacation and had not been studying for a really long time. The second peroid is even worse since the heat come back. Everytime the heat comes, my eye start in tears and headach come. I hate this. I can't focus, listen not to mention, to think!
Afterwards, I read the monetary report in the computer room till it close at 5. Found my bike's light not working again stress me and also make a dangerous way home since it's already full dark by 4:30.
I went to the supper market to get some vegetables since I found my mouth with a few hole probably because the heat as well as the germs.
Later went to the bike shop to fix the back break, the light and also the flat-tire. It is simply beacuse the light blob is loose that made it not lighting up for the front one, but the break might take a bit more time and the boss tell me to come back next week--like alway... After the air is filled, the bike is much easier to ride (Gee, you have no idea how difficult it is to ride to school in the last few days.)
Also another useful information the boss tell me that the light have to be "on" the bike and can not be pinned to the backpack or anywhere else. He made the gesture of covering his face with his hand when telling me that some police will pretend he did not see (cover face/eye) when he see the light on the backpact, but some police might not be so nice and will give you a ticket instead.>< The most point he want to make is more that he wants me to buy the new light he offers 7.75 euros which I will not think of buying even he wants me to think about it....
Another day ends, it is always been really fast for a week to go by with or without the letures and tutorial since it is always stressful, demanding and in a fast time pace. There is so much to work on and study all the time!
Compair to the past few days, I feel better and I cross my fingers that this trend will be kept.
ps. the trip journal will be posted after my final exams are over which is at least two weeks after :P
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